To say I am getting stressed over my weight is an understatement! February is HERE! Brooke and Josh's shower is 3 weeks from Sunday and only 7 weeks and 2 days until the WEDDING! I should have started the diet months ago! I have set a shower weight loss goal and a wedding weight loss goal. I only hope there's enough time! I have to clothes shop, which I hate. I am going to wait until the last minute and hope I go down a size! (riight) Brooke has also been dieting by watching her sugar and carb intake! She lost 10 lbs.! Yah! That is great! Way to go Brooke!
We have so much to do and our goal is to have everything we can do ahead of time DONE by March 1st. I keep looking at the calendar and wondering where the time went?!? Seems like yesterday she came home with the ring! So for us it's full speed ahead. Have to stay focused! Get in wedding mode and stay in wedding mode! We can sooo do this! :)

Birthday 52

I had a great birthday! I am now 52. That is hard to believe! Do I feel it? Sometimes. Do I look it? Probably most of the time. I am thankful to God, as always, to celebrate another birthday.
Today it hit me I hadn't blogged in several days- 6 to be exact. So I decided to birthday blog! I loved all my gifts and the time spent with my family, which has dwindled alot these days! But I'll take what I can get and not complain. Well, I might complain :/
The book Brooke got me was the sweetest thing and it made me cry, timing I guess had alot to do with it and the fact that she is so dear to my heart. The wedding is 8 weeks from today. My how time flies. August doesn't seem that long ago. Then again birthday #51 doesn't seem to have been a year ago.
Alot has happened in the last year. Justin took the job of head football coach at Campbell County High School. The boys bought a house in Andersonville. Josh got the position of head football coach at Clinton High School. Brooke got a teaching job in Anderson County. Brooke and Josh got engaged. The boys found their "own" church. Brooke goes to Baneberry more than she comes home. (had to throw that in there!)
I am praying for a good 52. I know they'll be alot of changes and I'm praying about those too. 2012, 52 and wondering just where the time goes.

Just sitting here and my thoughts are going in a dozen different directions. The wedding, the diet, the bridal shower, what to wear, what to eat, what to buy, what to do next, missing Brooke and the boys and once again hating change.
Not to sound like a broken record!
I guess it's just been that kind of day. Not so long ago I was cooking around the clock for my family and they were all in and out and I loved every minute of it. Today at one point I was trying to stay busy but the house was clean, laundry done and supper cooked so I actually cut open the little packs of Truvia and put them in one container... yep!
All the things I have loved doing, I don't do anymore, the things that to me were me. If that makes any sense at all. I don't even bake anymore. I use to do that almost everyday. As the wedding gets closer they'll be alot to do. No time for a pity ME party. That will be a good thing. I must be having major empty nest symptoms.
The diet is not far along to see if it's working but hopefully it will. I have to shop for my dress to wear to the wedding and that's not very long now. :)

Thursday is my Friday

I work a 4 day week. So when Thursday rolls around, it's my Friday. I am especially tired this p.m. I think it's a combination of the new diet and back to Zumba. My plan for tomorrow is to sleep late and do very little! I think everyone needs one of those days every now and then! That is why we love snow days sooo very much.
Am hoping to get to Brooke's Saturday. I need to take things to her and pick up a few things at Hobby Lobby but most of all I want to spend time with her, won't be long until she will drop the last name she has known since birth and officially be Mrs. Jennifer Brooke Kerr.

Wednesday

Lastnight I finally made it back to Zumba. I had been going faithfully and then Christmas happened! Was tough getting back on track! As I get older having "something" every night is too much so sometimes it's pick and choose. I don't like that either. The wedding invitations came yesterday! They look great and although I am happy I couldn't help being a little sad. Things will be different. Which translates into I have to share Brooke and it won't be 50/50... more like 80/20... me being 20! I have to say how happy Brooke made me with one of her blog comments about she and Josh seeing the need to find their own church. That made me smile.

Monday MLK day

This a.m. we met Brooke as planned... hmm, kind of. I was a tad late, that's not like me but I was very easily forgiven- that's not like her- lol! Just as luck would have it and our forgetfulness, the Park was closed for MLK day! We were able to do as needed at the Amphitheatre but had to become peeping Tom's and see what we could through the Tea Room windows. No counting tables or chairs, measuring, etc.,etc.

Nevertheless, it was a good day! We looked at churches, ate at Harrisons and made a quick grocery stop! Love spending time with Brooke, you have no idea how I've missed her. Sort of like being in school and loosing YOUR best friend to ANOTHER friend except you can't get mad at the other friend because you know deep in your heart HE needs to be her best friend. Like I said - I don't do changes very well but I'm really trying.

The diet...well, let's just say it's not got off the ground yet but it will. Oh Lord, please tell me it will.

Tomorrow

It's late but it's not tomorrow yet! I will be up early, should be asleep already! Mom and I are meeting Brooke at 10:00 a.m. to take a closer look at the Norris Tea Room and Amphitheater- the wedding venue. We need to take measurements, check outlets, count tables and chairs... all that good stuff! We are getting close! Whew! It won't be long now... Jennifer Brooke Kerr. Ah, take deep breaths, I know I can do this. (Lord willing)

Today I have once again attempted to start THE WEDDING DIET! My daughter is getting married in March! So far I've done good. Day one for me is always the hardest. Of course, it's only late afternoon- anything could happen. I have a plan. One that I am hoping will help me loose weight and gain a new attitude. The whole I can't deal with change thing has to get better... right? I always thought that everyone felt the same way I do... NOT! Why can't I have the whole, I want them to be happy, they have their own lives to live attitude. Well, hopefully with alot of will power and I'm talking alot... more than the normal person needs! AND alot of prayer, I can make those changes. 69 days til the wedding... and counting!

All of a Sudden!

I don't like changes and am thinking I probably never will. Looking back over the last year there has been alot of them. Most good, itleast for one person or the other. I love the fact we have lived in the same house for most of our childrens lives. I wouldn't want to move, change jobs or even get a different car. I guess my lack of loving change has brought on a big change in my life. All of a suddden nothing is as it was. Over time it won't feel like change it will just be the why it is. I wish I was one of those free spirited people that thrown in any situation quickly adjust but that I'm not. I have however decided my coping mechanism isn't working. I am going to have to paddle or sink!